waffle616

Its been a weird day yesterday. I didn't do much, never left the house. I tried reading the new Harry Potter, but Discovery Channel and then MTV distracted me for the night. I tried studying for my physics test today, I wrote my card out we can use in the test, that's about all... Other than that, that's about all I really did. I'm now getting some mapping done for my one dream commission. I'm doing the hard one now, the simpler one can wait [I'm getting art in return for the harder one, the other is a favour to a friend]. Well, better get back to it, this dream is a pain, since i do everything symmetrical, and he wants it random, so... ouch. Plus, its random trees,which i can NEVER get to look right anyways...

Waffle

Well, I went on my first date in like 3 years yesterday. I must say, it was very nice. Don't get me wrong, I liked my girlfriends online, but it wasn't the same. Yesterday has put me in such a good, upbeat mood, its kinda nice. She and I went out for some lunch, then sat in a park and just talked for hours, then went to a parade. I want to go out again soon, I was thinking to see Charlie and the Chocolate Factory, since she seemed to want to see it also. Eh, guess I'll have to see.

Waffle

Weather is, to be more exact. Yesterday it was a bright, beautiful day in possibly the 60's, I even drove home at 9PM with my windows down, that's how nice it was. Imagine my surprise this morning when I look out the window and there's not just a sprinkling, but almost half an inch to an inch already of snow o.O And, its slushy snow, my windshield wipers couldn't move it, they got stuck... so its gonna be an interesting drive into school today.

In other news, umm... been lonely, wishing Mandakat would come on sometime. I sent her some Valentine's Day gifts, just hope she got them [and if you're reading this snugglekitty, the foam I packed it with is what I use for my mask, thought you might like some for your new one =P] Well, gotta go now, car should be warmed up by now.

Waffle

Its been a long week, lemme tell you. My friend's sister, who is very special to me and a lot of other people, passed away Tuesday morning. She had Dandy Walker Syndrome which caused her to be mentally retarded, and deformed her body. She lived to 25, which my friend says is the longest anyone has lived with this Syndrome. I'm going to miss her a lot, and have to be there for my friend, and his family. Calling hours haven't been set up as I write this, but I'll probably know sometime today hopefully. Also, been kinda lonely this week, Mandakat's been sick and not online much, nor my other friends, when I'm online [school and work plus the hospital have restricted my time x.x]

Waffle

Magna-Fi "This Life"

Now I lay me down.
Tried so long I forgot what i'm trying for.
My heart laid before.
All that I wanted is absent.
In the comfort of your arms.
I can shut it all out.
Let is grow cold.
Let it fall away.

Give me a reason, help me,
Help me wash it all away.
Help me wash it all away.

I've grown to hate this life.
Everything I can't make right.
All the promises that I've failed.
Every night and everywhere I am.
All the dreams I can't let go.
Everytime I thought I should've known.
Everything I can't make right.
Everything that made me hate this life.

In these waking hours.
Sleeping apprehension.
The heart still beats, the lips still speak.
But the words fall dry.
Dry and useless like a smile from a friend that you missed.

Shut it all out.
Let it grow cold.
Let it fall away again.

Give me a reason, tell me.
Tell me everything's gonna be alright.
Everything's gonna be alright.

There's gonna be things you never knew.
Some things you can't get through.
There's some things you just don't do.
Some things you can't get through.
Oh no...
Don't want to hate this life

Well, once again I'm gonna try and use this thing, see how long it lasts this time =P. Past weekend was just bleh, been lonely, no one to talk to when I am on, since I worked a bunch. Hey, its book money, which I kinda need. I had meant to get some model painting done, but was just too down in the dumps to try anything. That's about all for now.

Waffle

***Edit*** Well, I took a cue from Mandakat and did my own Portrait. I think it really looks like me, to be honest. o.O

I haven't updated, yet again, as usual. Work and school are kicking me around a bunch, and I forget things easily. So... just saying I'm still around, for anyone who still reads this thing o.o

Waffle

I kinda slept in today, so later on I'll update this thing right. For now, its study time for my math test in 2 1/2 hours x.x And don't forget, I have to shower and leave way early to get a parking space. Stupid college...

Waffle

Haven't used this in a long time, once again. I get like that from time to time. Guess I'll put all my woes and stuff in here tomorrow, when I'm more awake. I have a bunch of stuff, as anyone who's talked to me lately knows. But that's for later. Too tired to do this now...

Waffle

Heh, kinda forgot to get going on this. My friend suggested I start collecting my thoughts here, so I'm gonna try. Hmm... let's see... my GF is on Easter break, but is sharing her room with her brother, so that makes less computer time. When she is on, to me it seems she's avoiding talking about anything serious and either gets called away to play a game with her family or like one night was too engrossed in reading the subtitles to an anime to talk to me... Then yesterday, she was on quite a while, but my friends were over for playing HALO, so we didn't talk much, and when I did IM her, she didn't really say anything back ;.; That brings us to today, Easter Sunday, and I work, then have a family dinner, after which I'll come in here and hopefully talk to her and study for my physio test tomorrow. Well, that's about all.

Waffle

Oy... well, its spring break, and what do i have? work, lots of it... So limited time seeing my GF and others... add on she's been distant and not paying much attention to the compy it seems when she's on. *shrugs* so now i'm all loney and stuff, doing nothing...

Waffle

I'm not really sure how to sum up the past few days, really... Lots of fighting with my friends while the bond with my GF has gotten stronger on the side... *sigh* been a long day, SSDD as they say on Dreamcatcher. Oh well, enjoy the lyrics below

Waffle

Dope-"Another Day Goes By"

Another day goes by
And I don't understand or know the reasons why
I'm looking for a change in life
But another day goes by

Here we go again

It's today
I wish it was tomorrow though I think I'd say
Ya know I think it feels just like yesterday
So lately I've been looking for a change
But the more things change
The more they seem to stay the same
Here we go again

It's a new day
It's almost like tomorrow never came
Same ole thing same ole game different name
And everyday I sing the same ole song
And today I don't feel like waking up
But the show must go on and on and on

Another day goes by
And I don't understand and I don't pretend to try
I wanna change my life
But another day goes by

Just when I get it right another day goes by

Here we go again

So many days gone by
I still don't understand but now I realize
I'm gonna change my life that's right
While the days go by
I'm gonna change my life that's right
While the days go by
I wanna change my life
But another day go by

Still not much different. School's stressing me out, work's getting boring, I don't wanna talk about the funeral home... that's about all. Sitting here now, no one's online, bored out of my skull... Oh well, least I close at work tonight with my best friend, gonna have fun, we haven't worked together in a long long time. That's all for today.

Waffle

Side note, found this, interesting stuff, places I've visited are in red [i was in Missourri for a layover, but didn't count it =P]



create your own personalized map of the USA
or write about it on the open travel guide

Hmm... Tuesday, let's see. I woke up, talked to some people online, went and bought some cd's, tried to see my boss in the hospital but they wouldn't tell me where he was -.- then i went to school. Had some stuff come up last night with a friend we're trying to help out, bleh, bleh, bleh. Just another day, got the calling hours tonight... my friend's coming down from Akron to go with me. That's about all, got homework to do.

Waffle

Yesterday, was an iffy day. I spent all morning finishing my lab notebook, talking to people in the meantime, then had some classes. Got some RP'ing done in the afternoon, spent that time with my GF too. Finished up the day at work late, playing around with the other closer since we'd done everything. Just another day, nothing bad, a few good things, but nothing totally memorable.

Waffle

Sorry for not getting this over the weekend, kinda forgot about it >.< In any case, weekend wasn't that great. Friday I can't remember much, we got a call right before leaving work at 4am Saturday morning from my manager's wife, saying he was in the ER and they weren't sure what was wrong with him. I kinda forgot about it, but more about that later. Saturday I never even left my room, talked to people and whatnot, got pissed when I couldn't find my lab notebook due Monday, threw some stuff around, swore a bunch [I was home alone] and got started re-writing the whole thing. Can't remember much else. Sunday, found out the manager had a massive heart attack Friday night/Saturday morning and they had a card for him. Sunday night was his last day in the store too... Well, we were busy all day Sunday at work and I didn't get home 'til later than expected. Worked all last night on the notebook still, got a little RP done, got one of my alt's a mate possibly, but not much else other than talking to my GF and stuff [honestly, I forget a lot of it, this notebook has taken a lot of my thoughts... >.<] Well, that's my weekend, be back tomorrow. Almost forgot, a pretty good friend died Sunday-ish, I'm not sure. I'd heard he'd been shot around Thursday and was in a coma. Apparently he died from it... only 18 or 19... Makes me think about him, he lived on my road, and we joked around with him on the bus all the time. Nice kid, fell in with the wrong crowd though... and it ended in this. *sigh*

Waffle

Well, yesterday, another meh day. Got up, went to lab, got out, sat at the compy all day. Only saw my GF like 5 minutes, and she barely talked to me. Add on another of my ALT's has 2 guys interested in her at the same time, and I don't wanna hurt either of them... Add on I'm stuck in the middle of 2 of my good friends having a pissing contest or something, I don't know what... Meh, that's all for now.

Waffle

Meh, another day gone by. Spent most of it lonely, no one was really on. Did get to see my GF for a few hours, just have some concerns with her that I'd rather not say. Nothing much on the school front, or much else, really...

Waffle

That about sums up yesterday. Nothing. I started a few RP's, none of them went to completion, RL got in the way of each or something like that. Add in no one was really on... Got to talk to my GF for about an hour before she had to go also... *sighs* wasn't a bad day, not a good one either. I just existed, really...

That's all,
Waffle

Well, just trying this thing out, really. Figure I need a place to vent and what not about my life and such. Well, mostly now I'm just kinda depressed over school and whatnot. If i don't get good grades this semester, I basically won't be going back in the fall. Yeah, that's how it is... In any case, I got my first organic chem test back, not good... I spend too much time on the computer I guess. I'm addicted, I know it, and its just frustrating knowing that when you can't do anything about it either. *sigh* guess I gotta cut out the computer time, its just, its my only social life, when I think about it, and let's face it, I'm a very social creature, and don't have many people IRL. I don't know, I'm just getting irritable and frustrated knowing I can't change it. I even flicked off the manager at work last night... I'm becoming someone I'm really not.

Ever just wish you could either lock yourself in your room for a week or just leave everything in your life behind for a bit? That's what I'm at, but I'd like it to be for the rest of my life...

That's all for today,
Waffle